Monday, December 09, 2013

Half-Lazy

I feel like I *need* to blog. Because I know people like to read and see what is up, but I don't have any particularly funny stories or experiences to share with you. But maybe instead I'll tell you a true story about why I love being lazy.

Well, to be fair, only half lazy. :)

Last spring I decided that I needed a break from full time teaching. I'm a pretty talented teacher (humble too) and I work hard to provide a fun, educational environment for the students that I teach each year. But after 8 years of middle school teaching, I had had it. To be truthful, after 7 years I was done, but my practical side told me to keep going. Oh I could write you a long list of reasons why I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, but that is not fair, because many of my days were good, my school was good, my fellow staff was good. But the constant pressure to do more, be more, spend more, etc combined with the pressure of less help, less funding, more special needs students weighed heavily on me until I realized I could not fully serve the students in my classroom. Not the way I was trained, and not the way I wanted. I was tired. So so so tired. And so I took a break.

It has been one of the best decisions I have made for myself. The only downside is that I don't have a regular income. The benefits: free time ALL.THE.TIME Whenever I want. I also get to travel, not work at home, not stress out about kids under-performing and blaming myself, not dealing with stressed out parents (contrary to popular belief you child is not the only student I teach... sorry.), not do extra work I'm not paid to do etc. It's fantastic.

So what do I do with all this wonderful free time? I do crafts. I read. I spend far too much time on facebook. I watch TV, I work out, I spend time with my man. I go shopping, I write letters, I nap. OH do I nap. So much napping.

So how does a grown woman provide for herself with no job? A combination of things. I get a little bit of money I have been investing in over the past fifteen years through an organization known as EI, I substitute teach, and I waitress. And I make more money waitressing than I did teaching. I think it's sad that people care more about someone bringing food to their table then educating their children.

It's great though. I love the half-lazy life I lead. I like not crying in my shower at the end of a long day. I like working when I feel like it. I like having a life with zero pressure in it. I LOVE making sweet tips waitressing, I like just doing things, stuff, whatever, whenever.  I feel so much healthier and happier and relaxed. Will I go back to teaching? Probably - because that is where my gifting is and I do enjoy it. But I'm not ready yet. Right now I'm happy with my low key half-lazy existence.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I admire you so much for taking the time off you need. I'm at year 7 and what you said about your experience teaching rings so, so very true.

Miss you lots Niks. Glad you are happy... and nappy. Dedicate a nap to me every now and then. I'll dedicate some science lessons (by the way we are making poo a la Miss Gerrits next week!) to you. :)

Donna said...

After 7 1/2 years, I was done too. Thanks to EI, I took 6 months off where I didn't do any teaching at all. I'm finally easing back into it...I tutor and supply teach now. At first I wasn't sure, but I'm enjoying it--less responsibility, more money, and I get to choose how often I work! After 7 1/2 years of working in the Christian school system, I'm doing emergency work with the goal of getting on with the public board in the fall. I love being home, reading, writing, cooking, baking, and oh yes...sleeping in! :)